This is the final part of my Methodist Despair playlist.
Today I pull out Bloody, Bloody Andrew Jackson and Lily Allen.
I earned that “explicit” tag. Be warned.
“I’m Not That Guy” from Bloody, Bloody Andrew Jackson
When you have no one to show you what to do
How do you find your way?
When your country doesn’t have a place for you
How do you have your say?
How do you make them pay?
“Bastards” by Kesha
I got too many people I got left to prove wrong
All those motherfuckers been too mean for too long
And I’m so sick of crying
Darling, what’s it for?
I could fight forever, oh, but life’s too short
“Devil” by Tyler Glenn
As Sunday service got me anxious
It’s the reason that I was depressed
I could see it on their face
I did not deserve His grace
So I skipped the holy sacrament
I swear I still believe in something
But I couldn’t pray the gay away
So if I’m the wicked one
I’m still my mama’s son
And you’ll never take that love away
“Learn to Let Go” by Kesha
I think it’s time to practice what I preach
Exorcise the demons inside me
Whoa, gotta learn to let it go
The past can’t haunt me if I don’t let it
Live and learn and never forget it
Whoa, gotta learn to let it go
“White Flag” by Bishop Briggs
Patience is wearing thin, paper thin
Promises broke again, what a sin
But it only feeds my energy
So don’t expect no sympathy
“A Long December” by Counting Crows
And it’s been a long December and there’s reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last
“One Foot” by WALK THE MOON
Oh, through the wilderness
How come even together there can be loneliness?
Oh, our heart’s a mess
But it’s our only defense to brave the wilderness
“The Show Must Go On” from Moulin Rouge
The show must go on
The show must go on
Inside my heart is breaking
My makeup may be flaking
But my smile still stays on
“Praying” by Kesha
‘Cause you brought the flames and you put me through hell
I had to learn how to fight for myself
And we both know all the truth I could tell
I’ll just say this is “I wish you farewell”
I hope you’re somewhere prayin’, prayin’
I hope your soul is changin’, changin’
I hope you find your peace
Falling on your knees, prayin’
“Fuck You” by Lily Allen
Do you get
Do you get a little kick out of being small-minded?
You want to be like your father
It’s approval you’re after
Well, that’s not how you find it
Do you
Do you really enjoy living a life that’s so hateful?
‘Cause there’s a hole where your soul should be
You’re losing control a bit
And it’s really distasteful
“All the Way Down” by Glen Hansard
You have broken me all the way down
Down upon my knees
And you have broken me all the way now
You’ll be the last you’ll see
Narrative Paradise 