Methodist Despair Playlist: Part 1 (explicit)

After the UMC vote in February, I turned to a classic coping mechanism.

That’s right: I made a Spotify playlist.

You can listen to it, if you want. I titled it Methodist Despair.

My feelings about the vote were complex and sometimes explicit.

I didn’t know what else to do, so I turned to music to communicate feelings I couldn’t access.

If you feel as disappointed in the Methodist church as I do, this playlist is for you.

“Fuck Authority” by Pennywise

You know the time is right to take control

We got to take offense against the status quo

No way, not gonna stand for it today

Fight for your rights, it’s time we had our say

“My Church” by Maren Morris

Can I get a hallelujah

Can I get an amen

Feels like the Holy Ghost running through ya

When I play the highway FM

I find my soul revival

Singing every single verse

Yeah I guess that’s my church

“Drunk Girls Don’t Cry” by Maren Morris

You say he saw the light, the slate is clean

He swears up and down that it’s gonna be

Different this time

That’s like saying drunk girls don’t cry

“All Time Low” by Jon Bellion

I, I’ve been trying to fix my pride

But that shit’s broken, that shit’s broken

Lie, lie, l-lie, I try to hide

But now you know it

That I’m at an all time low

“Breathe Me” by Sia

Ouch, I have lost myself again

Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found

Yeah, I think that I might break

Lost myself again and I feel unsafe

“Without Me” by Halsey

You know I’m the one who put you up there

Name in the sky

Does it ever get lonely

Thinking you could live without me

“Without You” from Rent

The mind churns, the heart yearns

The tears dry, without you

Life goes on, but I’m gone

‘Cause I die without you

“Mr. Brightside” by the Killers

Swimming through sick lullabies

Choking on your alibi

But it’s just the price I pay

Destiny is calling me

Open up my eager eyes

‘Cause I’m Mr. Brightside

“I Hate You” from If/Then

I hate you, I hate you,

I love you, I hate you,

don’t do it, I need you

Forget it, I know you

My God how I hate you

Don’t leave me, I love you

Don’t say that you love me

‘Cause what does it matter

“This Was a Home Once” by Bad Suns

This was a home once

Can I say something to change your mind?

This was a home once

All these years go by and I’ve been blind

“Growing Pains” by Coin

You’ll never know

What kind of person I become when you’re gone, oh

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